The following poem I wrote during one of my moments of weakness, a moment that I regret so much, a moment that could have changed everything that I am right now, today.
The below poem is a reminder to me that, well - it is ultimately all about you and how comfortable you are about your decision. Everyone else will eventually get it and things WILL fall into place. If only I was a little wiser then.
If only.


Just when I had made a decision
You came along
Out of the blue
You set fire to my mission.

In moments so few
You blew me away
Introducing me to a world both familiar and new;
I lost my direction Unsure of which step to take
It scares me so To feel this way
To be lost without a clue
To not know which note to play

Should I choose this path unknown I am filled with uncertainty...
Will you be there till the end,
Standing right here, beside me?
Will you be there when I need you most,
Or just a mere shadow of yourself,
A mere ghost?

If I ask you to hold my hand now, You need to know,
There is another hand I am letting go
There is an entire world I will have to face
And I am not sure I'm strong enough.
It will be then I will need your embrace
It will be then I will need faith
For I am weaker than I look
And this road will be rough.

And if I don't
You need to know
Dear friend, I cherish you so.
Friends Forever, will we remain?
The though of losing you hurts so much I cannot explain,
Go if you must, and I will understand .
But before you go, you must know
You will always be the one that got away.

The person to whom this poem is directed will probably never read it.
The person to whom this poem is directed will probably never know it.
If only.
If only.
If only.