So he claims he Loves me. He claims he wants to marry me. I brush him off. He is persistent. I don't take him seriously. How do I, without opening my heart to the possibility of possible bruises? It is too complicated. Our lives too distant, our relationship too complicated. It is too complicated.
It is not that I don't want to. It is just that I am not sure I can handle getting hurt again, or hurting some one else.
I want to say Yes, lets do this. I want to say Sweep me off my feet. But more than anything, in light of all that is against us, I want to say Fight. Fight for me.
But I am scared. I am scared that when I do, he won't.
I am scared. I am scared he will back out.
I am scared. I am scared of getting hurt.

"All you need is 20 seconds of insane courage, and I promise you something great will come out of it", Benjamin Mee, We Bought A Zoo